Today was kinda down in dumps for me. After this morning's lesson, I pondered I am not as capable as what I thought as myself. Guess it's my inflated ego. The mood drove me further down when a surveryor greeted me and I just turned him down (it's a common gesture for me). Then, I recalled: he greeted me with salam. I replied back, but this was when I already walked away. Damn, I regretted it: why did I ignore a good-willed guy? Sigh...Can you believe I bought 3 boxes of muffin from this old door2door man. I sorta tried to recompense my guilt earlier so I thought I can help him by relieving his burden. But later on, I realised I paid $10 for 3 boxes....I thought muffins are cheap? Oh well, beramal solehla..
One thing I realize though when I was doing my own personal reflection: I am a failure. Everyone is smart, has a high GPA, and aims for the U. What about me? My GPA is dropping constantly, I hate Science and I skip classes alot. What am I gonna do after NS? Everyone has a part-time job that can support them. Everyone has a talent to support their career. What about me? I have none of these. Sorry for my whiny pitiful rants, but this is the only place I can voice out my sadness. D=
OKok no more rants. Peace!
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