Today was the last Friday before sch reopens...
Had a good chat with my good friend. Whatever that we talked about...it lifted my depression and troubles just thinking about them. Yesterday I had to do another research again, so I just told my teammate that I'm sick of this and not wanting to continue with this. Whenever I keep thinking of having to do a rough finding, the stress of finding a good result will overtake my sanity. I'll always complain to Mak about my stress and I'm really guilty of having her to share and feel the situation I'm going through. Everyone had their project taken a step further, but I'm still at the blueprint. Sigh...I really am not cut out for Science or any of this learn yourself stuff...
Mak said that if I'm overstressed with this, she told me to forget about it. I'm doing a Personal Sabotage right now, so whatever happens, I'm gonna say no to meetings. Withdrawal may soon follow after a few enquiries...Then off to NS I go...after that will continue with my diploma hunt.
I feel so useless right now <='(( Thanks to those who gave me support, especially my parents.
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As I walked through the rain today, reminscing comes to my mind. Like Graduation Night 04, or any other random events with my buddies of sec sch life. Just this morning I dreamt of my primary school life. Those cute little friends. But we're growing old. My parents are growing old. I have to prove to be someone useful...
Miss those times..
Salam
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